..a meSsage from my ANGEL.

This message belongs to someone that i won't truly forget..

and I'm writing this for you to read this and wherever this message goes far, I hope it reaches where you are. . .

To you my Angel,
my beloved Grandmother who passed away lat November 1998,
it's quite a long time, a decade already past...but your lost was still as fresh as a newly
bloomed flower. Since, then the lives of our family made a very big difference including ME, who
noticed the big change of having without you in our lives. You're indeed a great lost for all of us.

Though, I know everyone of the family had moved on, but it is ME who left half stranded..
unable to move and cross from the other side.
I'm really really in a deep regret of not saying the things which i suppose to say to you Lola,
though, I was still a kid that time but I know and understand what you've been going through and what the family's carrying for. . .a heavy burden.
Now, as I grew old enough and my mind was molded by the experiences, not yet completely
molded, but already enough to understand the world..the young mind had already vanished and already figured out how hard for us and to my part is your lost.
Not having Lola around.

It's very disturbing to miss your presence and it is also very alarming thing how the family acted so strange now.
A great change indeed that affects the life of everybody at home. The happy and strong relationship had slowly fades away and turned into a life as if living their own lives...
Conflicts keep on arising without resolution.
But if your still here, it won't happen.

Your lost is a pain to endure. The conflicts in the family are also a pain, seeing them with pride and anger is a pain giving me.
Lola, I know,even I can't see you with my naked eyes but I can feel you in my heart.
You seemed not here, but I know you'll always there, always around.
I need your help Lola..I know you've seen "everything" to this family and trough your loving help and own good way..it will be okay.

Before I end his message..
just let you know, how happy and blessed we are for having you in our lives.
You have fone so much good things here on earth and you deserve to be in the place where light and peace reigns.
WE love YOU.
I LOVE YOU.

This is all for you. . . . LOLA.(Josephina Cui Doromal)

March 10 2009

_the kind of Friends worth keeping for_

F R I E N D S


What is a friend? and how they are worth keeping for?
there are many definitions of a friend, but for me there is only one
thing that a friend is best describe for.
In my 19 years living in this world, i encountered diff'rent personalities
and some of them became my friends and my considered TRUE friends.
But how could i know that they are true among the true, and what are my criteria?
hMm..simple as this,friendship in not just having too many secrets shared, hopes, and fears
but it is about vulnerability. By showing another being with who i am without any glitz, the trust you build, and
the knowledge that i will not be judge, and the most important thing, the knowledge of a true friend will honestly show the hidden sides of yourself that you usually ignore.A friend that stands when you are wrong,
who will fight against me when i don't listen to reason, accepts me for being me and never ever judges me but only the behavior.

and if your a true friend of mine..you'll react upon this message.If you have this ideal traits..well,it might be one of my true friends.


10/24/08

" First Heartbreak "

I've once opened my heart,
'coz i thought i was way too smart,
to fall to a guy whom i thought his heart was mine,
but, I was dazzled by his fake love that shine,
and was fooled for believing that it was the right time;

I tried so hard to escape from being stranded,
but, in the end..in the ground of loneliness is where i landed,
Now, pain of loving him is all I've got,
fear of trusting a man so much,
and hate of believing to their lies so much;

As I'm surpassing this chaos,
I believe that this open wound will slowly close,
the years of silent tears will never ever flows,
and the word "ACCEPTANCE" is my only dose;

All the days of my life,
I'll never forget this part,
the pain of letting go, and
the feelings of a damaged heart.
_aiyyah's masterpiece_

"a giRl wHose Heart you turned to stOne"

What makes the heart get stoned?

was it the pain that penetrated up to the bone?

or it was the fake affection that you have shown?

or it was the love that has been offered and made her alone?

When the heart starts to open,

just let it wide open,

never wound it, never let it weep,

coz it only needs a sweet gentle grip.

Once the heart gets broken,

and it cannot longer bear the pain,

it runs away and slowly closes the door

and wont let anyone enter and hurt it once more.

as it bleeds and dies,

no one is blameworthy but your lies,

and the heart that once who hopes and tries,

will suddenly fades and flies.

As everything will be over,

the heart will always remember

the pain, the nights and every drop of the tear

and regret, that the love wasn't offered to a dumb cheater.

- A I YAH 2009-